Never thought that could be possible but yet.. i do feel like i am hung in a limbo.. stuck in between at ‘DON”T SETTLE” and “YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL” . It sucks.
Back when I am in my late 20s.. I always thought that my life should be pretty much charted out by 37….but heck ! it is not. If fact, I have never felt more unsure than ever in my entire life. And it is much more unnerving than ever. When you were 20s.. there’s no place to go but forward.. the history is for me to write but now – it is a whole different ball game.
Don’t settle, don’t settle , don’t settle.. that’s been hammering into my mind then there’s you should be grateful of what you have – the easy life, the serenity, the mundane-ness…
So what do I want ? Or more like what I am afraid of (more likely). Yes.. I hate to admit it but I am afraid to lose what I should be grateful for – the easy, relax, mundane-ness life and at the same time I am afraid that because of what I am afraid of losing, I may be losing more in life that is in store for us.
decisions decisions… actions actions… when will it ever end…