what just an hour can do

After mulling over ‘not enough’ time for the longest time – I finally get that it is just that ONE (1) hour that made such a big difference.

It is amazing by just leaving on time – ie 5 pm from work so that I could get home, do a quick cook up for dinner (myself & my dog) , mop the house, fold the clothes, have dinner & shower before I go pick Relm up from babysitter ..And I am very happy that I even get to have at least 45 mins of social cum play time with Relm before she goes to sleep. AND even  get my own private thinking / working time before I go to bed.

So my WOW # 1 of the year  is turning out to be a wonderful experience for me..

must must must keep it up !!

 

mental importance of a New Year

If we did not have such a thing as a NEW year (be it Lunar,Muslims,Gregorian Calendar etc),  I think the human race would really go crazy.

As I prepared for the year end & as preparing for the New Year (never mind the ‘scary’ predictions of the year) – one can’t help but feel renewed with hope & aspirations.  Of course – thank goodness there are only 12 months – can’t imagine it is longer but then again if it is shorter (like the Planet Mercury – a year is only 88 Earth Days) – it will be overkill too.

Can’t think of a better description for the title cos I feel the expectations of a New year is really on our mind / mental. If one think about it, you stay go one with your usual routine after the celebrations isn’t it ? But what the New Year does give is giving us another chance to make a change for the better. Make ones review our past errors & provide for corrections, try new things, meet new people!

Its a little late for the Lunar New Year wish to my limited readers of this blog.. but heck …

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR… May This year be a prosperous, fruitful & filled with happiness !!

Hello 2012 or not?

Will not do an ensemble of 2011 since the only thing I would want to forever remember would only be Relm’s birth.  The rest of the year are not worth my brain my memory  to store on.

Predictions says 2012 will be a difficult with big changes year for me. Suggested that I travel more, ‘let go’ more, or even shift away.

Of course I would be lying if I said I didn’t mind but I guess one just got to be more positive about it. After all, without challenges one can’t progress. Major progress always come amid chaos.

So.. hello 2012 , like it or not, you are not a choice but a given.. so I will accept you graciously (i guess?)

first holiday trip with the baby

It is not without its difficulties (like the time to get ready & the amount of things that we gotta bring about) of course. At least I found out that Relm has taken a ‘liking’ to certain type of bottle. Thank goodness I brought her preferred one with us on this trip.  Oh yes.. I also learnt that it is VERY important to stay in a good hotel.. cos the baby KNOWs it, & I found that the ‘performance’ of the baby seems to correlate with the # of stars in the hotels we stayed in.

And here’s our first picture at our first holiday together! (can’t wait for next year’s trip)

 

 

no poo # 1

I couldn’t have imagine that one of the worries I would have is Relm not pooping enough. I would have thought that I would have been happy cos I just need to do less diaper change with the less poop.. but no.. I am worried. It is funny how the reassurances from friends, www information & even from the doctor does not seem to reassure me still. I guess one can’t change one’s perception on the ‘right’ amount of times that one should poo that easily.

 

Worry #1: not heeding an adult’s advice

Ok.. I am a paranoid.  Relm is really just a baby but yes.. I am worried that she will not heed her parents’ advice. And I finally get to watch “TAKEN” (a 2008 movie) – thanks to Channel 5 & Michael being at home early – so I could watch the movie in peace at home. I thought it is an ‘educational’ movie to be seen by teenagers.. Of course – Relm is not having a hero of a father or a mother who is capable of what Liam Neeson’s stunts as in the movie which makes it even more important that I need to get her to see this movie when she’s 15.

Trailer:-

to have sisters…

If you don’t understand how a woman could both love her sister dearly and want to wring her neck at the same time, then you were probably an only child.  ~Linda Sunshine

I should be counting my blessing. I have sisters that I could talk to & count on. I mean they are not perfect, each got their own weird thing going on (including me) but still they are like ‘yours’ to keep no matter what. Just a few words of assurance  makes one feel so much better. I am not saying it is all rosy & nice all the time, we all have our big fights & what not but somehow like Linda Sunshine says.. its hard to understand but still is so natural.

missing what I do not have

This is of course going to be a musing of crap. I mean – how could one be missing what one do not have right? But the thing is – i actually do. Of course I am sure that I am just missing what I imagined what would have been still… I am missing what I do not have.

This was supposed to be published on Sept 15th.. for some reason – maybe I was missing too much – that I didn’t click the ‘publish’ button.

Coo-coos

Baby started coo-ing .. It wasn’t that exciting.. & now i wonder why it is so important to be reminded to say ‘ang ger-ger’ to baby ??! I would have rather say mummy / daddy.  Or she would drink all the milk she has been given from the bottle when I asked her too. That would have been more exciting – yes.. she understanding & doing what I want her to do.

Yea.. dream on. More exciting definitely.

to be un-selfish

Yes – Un-selfish & not generous. It is not a vocab. ‘deficiency’ issue.. it is just- sometimes I think un-selfish is what parents should do. Generous would be too much.. , there’s no word to describe the in-between of selfish & generous so gotta settle with un-selfish.

Lately I have been thinking a lot vs doing more, maybe it is because I have not yet overcome the fear & my doubts (a lot of them).  Couple with so much happening around my friends (old & new) that are going places & me – seems to be stuck in the boring ole JayBee. Or people who worked with family seems to be having such a whirl of a time while I gotta juggle with my new life. … Which of course created a lot of negative thinking… vs positive ones.

I came to realized that ALL loving parents want what’s best for their children happiness  (note: HAPPINESS & not anything else)  which means the parents got to be un-selfish despite their difficulties or how much they needed the child’s company.  Of course there’s double standard – un-selfishness seems to be selective or rather exclusive but then again it is to be expected.

Still.. I cannot complain cause the decision was mine finally. Even though it feels like a very wrong decision right now & can’t help feeling being ‘used’ due to the result of selfishness.

Let this to be a reminder – to be un-selfish for my little one when she grows up.